Some days I wish I could just hit the reset button on my life. Just fucking start over with a clean slate and do things differently. Not so much by going back in time but more getting up and leaving it all behind, go someplace where no one knows me, and start my life off with how I want it to be.
No expectations or surprises at how I've "changed". No one trying to get me to revert to doing things the way I used to, or rather doing things the way they are all used to seeing me do.
I get to dress the way I want, I get to drink what I want, I get the live the way I want, and no one will ever know I have "changed". No one will ever care. They will take me at face value and accept that package they get.
But no, that's not how it works. I have to, in effect, be a nasty, evil, rebellious, bastard and hurt everyone's feelings.
God, I fucking hate this.
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