The rhetoric of Boyd K. Packer this year was needlessly caustic. And while he may have never mentioned the words, "gay", "homosexual" or even the insidious phrase "same-sex-attraction", we all know what he was talking about. We all know of his utter disdain for those that don't fit into his idealistic notion of gender, patriarchy and willful ignorance of the world at large.
Boyd K. Packer is just one of many I hold responsible for the damage done to the souls of gay individuals, young and old, in and out of the church. Such damage that I still grapple with from time to time.
Boyd K. Packer is the one I personally hold responsible for the encouragement of physical violence towards gay individuals, young and old, in and out of the church. Such threats that I personally experienced and still find difficult to process. Let us NOT forget that one of Mathew Sheppard's murderers was a Mormon.
Boyd K. Packer is just one of many who, when he speaks, will incite fear, hatred and malice towards the LGBT community. The many who I hold responsible are the church members who say 'Amen' with enthusiastic unison to Packer's hostile words.
If, in some small way, I can save one soul from the anathema that is religion, Mormon or otherwise, my life will not have been a complete waste. I honestly don't know how I'm going to do that, but it's ok. At least I managed to save myself for I am one of the lucky ones who found the self-awareness to understand my responsibility. But many people aren't as fortunate, and many may never get to that point in their lives where they can learn how to repair the damage inflicted upon them, because many of them will have died by their own hand before they could get the support they desperately needed.
Mormons often wonder why those that leave the church can't leave the church alone. So they feel picked on by us angry, gay, ex/post-Mormons. But, I don't care. I am a product of that religion and culture, 40+ years in the making; it has permeated my DNA and it's not something I feel like I'm ever going to get over in my short lifetime. Besides, they are the ones who can't leave US alone. So, if the Mormon church is not willing to take responsibility for Boyd K. Packer, the damage he and many others have done and still do to the LGBT community, but instead continue to blame the victim or Satan, I'm going to continue to poke at their abhorrent hypocrisy, which could very well mean I may never leave them alone.
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